every winter it's the same fear; i'm gonna be alone on christmas this year. and though i think your heart is sincere, i know i don't really belong here. i sense their glares, and i feel unprepared. i'm afraid to say anything, cause i'm not sure that they'll know what i mean. i want to be here with your family, instead i'm packing up my things to leave. my heart is running on the cold air, they say that i spend too much time with you, but i don't listen. feel like i'm in high school again. it's reflected in the concepts they share. i might be there, but i don't see where. i'm far away mentally, cause i don't think they want to hear from me. i want to be part of my family, instead i'm sitting here silently. i'm afraid to say anything, cause i don't know if they care what i think. i want to be loved by somebody, instead i push them all away from me.
Takes me back to my high school classroom during the days of binging Inio Asano's old manga scanlations before anything was licensed. At that time, I was discovering many kinds of Asian shoegaze, but I've never heard anything like this. Makes me think of Pasteboard, Supecar, and Midnight Pingpong a bit, and it's funny bc the first two I listen have blue album covers too. Lu